Happy "6th" Birthday Benny!

I didn’t want you at first. Having you meant I didn’t have her anymore. Every time I looked at you, all I thought was “you’re not her.”

You didn’t want me at first. You were scared and untrusting. So many changes and unknowns in your short life. You could sense that my heart was not yet open.

Benny's Picture on Petfinder.com

But here we are almost 5 years later and I cannot imagine my life without you.

We are cut from the same cloth. We were both unwanted, thrown away, tossed aside, abused and betrayed.

We are both survivors, endlessly searching for that safe place we can call home. We have both found it in each other. You sit in my lap and lay your head against my beating heart and the world slows down until it is just us, safe and loved.

You look in my eyes and I know I am loved. You don’t flinch from my hands and I know you feel safe. You make me laugh all the time, even when I want to cry. You are my guaranteed smile of the day.

You make me a better person. You give me purpose and a reason to keep going. When I wish the whole world would go away, I reach for you and I find the good in this world.

After all you have been through, your heart is still pure. You greet everyday expecting happiness and good things. Such big lessons from such a small teacher.

My Bestest Man

I don’t know how you came into this world. I don’t know why so many people tried to take you out of this world. I don’t know the exact day you entered this world but I gave you my grandfather’s birthday because he was the only good person I knew in my childhood. He loved animals more than any people and he loved me purely. Like you do.

I do know that you make this world a better place. I know that you were meant to be here in this world.

Everyone who sees you or passes you on the street smiles or stops to talk to you and you brighten their day.

You were meant to be saved and in turn, you have saved me. You are my angel, my heartbeat, my Honeybear, my Benoni. You are my son.

Happy Birthday Benny.

Love forever,
Mommy

Benny on his 3rd Birthday